Hey everybody.  I know, I know... been a while.  I've been very distracted.  Nah, I take that back, that's a lie.  I wasn't distracted.  I just didn't care. 

Well... what can I say?  My life was going in a bad direction, and I didn't even realize it.  I made some really stupid decisions, with some really stupid people.  I pushed aside the people that really should have mattered... the people that really deserved my attention.

With that in mind, i'd like to take this time to point out that a lot of people have said that I have been giving their opinions on the way I am currently living my life.  Fill in the blanks.  They are trying to dictate my decisions.  And so I thought to myself for a long time... maybe they are right!!!  So let me tell you what conclusion I came to:

Fuck you all

I like living my life this way

And I will continue to do so

Remember... everyone dies, but very few people truly live.  Are you living your life?

-Rollander    

My new nickname I finally accepted after being referred to by it numerous times.  Even by 3 kids from Newton I don't know...

Wow, good God... Jen's party... yeah... if you didn't get a chance to go to this party last night, just do yourself a favor and fucking go kill yourself, because you missed the best party ever.

11:00-5:00am... good hours

Met a bunch of cool people, learned how to dance with glow sticks, and I swam.  However, with that in mind, I got my phone wet... and it died.  And so a lot of the people I met at that party, aren't going to be able to reach me... and I can't call them and tell them why, because the numbers were on my phone.  AUGH!

Watching people dancing on roofs, strobelights, good music, a pool, and the occasional cig...

I really can't describe it, but you just had to have been there.

Currently Watching Cannibal! The Musical By Trey Parker see related

Wow, it has been a while.  I really should get back into the swing of things.  I haven't done anything related to xanga for weeks.  But anyway...

Let's see.  Um.... Cinderella auditions were last night, and the rumor is that I did extremely well.  But I don't listen to such crazy rumors.  So I'll just move on.

It's odd.  I've been trying to get back into the swing of dating.  I'm having problems.  Not getting dates.  That's never been a problem for me.  It's just that I think I would rather be single.  And yet, at the same time, I would like to be with someone.  But yeah, I am running around in circles.  At this point, I have been propositioned, and I could have a girlfriend... I'm just not sure if that's even what I want.

That being said, I did have a great week.  Movies, All-Star, Parties, and a good old posse... yes, I finally can say that I have a posse.  I should really use this to my advantage.  Now if only I had some more enemies...(Actually, we were all talking, and we may have a target) *ahem* but anyway.

Speaking of fighting, if anyone is wondering why people are getting kicked out of the parking lot after school, they can blame me.  The rent-a-cop recieved a report from a student (yes a student!) that myself and Justin were fighting in the parking lot.  *sigh* people should seriously just keep to themselves.

That's good enough for now.  I'll continue this later.

This song is amazing accurate to describe my present mindset... but it matters not right now.

I'm better now.  Except school.  That sucks.

People.... humanity would be great if it wasn't for humans.

I don't really have much to say.

I need a cigarette *goes out to smoke*

*comes back* that's better.

I don't think I'll do my homework tonight.

Yes, I do realize that my last few posts have been... drab.  I've been in this sort of holding pattern that is restricting me from positive thought.  I'm sure it will disappear shortly.  Until then, just hope that my next post will be better.

Oh... and one more thing

They're taking the hobbits to Isengard!

-Yours